*sigh*

“ But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. ”- 1 Peter 2:9

Right now I couldn't feel less chosen, less royal (unless we're talking about the Windsors where it seems a given to be a complete f*** up! In which case I'm a right royal f*** up!), or less holy.

I don't feel out of the darkness, I'm well in the darkness. However, the Bible says I am all these good things whether I feel them or not. Regardless of my actions etc.

I do find it easy to beleive things I don't neccessarily feel if I'm feeling positive or indifferent. When I feel bad it's virtually impossibe to believe the good things until the negativity passes. Anyway I'm gonna give it a go.....